Someone is listening from a safe distance

Here is what's been going on (in short form)

1) Things become so complicated as you get older. You have to worry about people sleeping with other people that could be hazardous to your career. TodayI thought to myself, when did we all change? When did we shift our dreams and ambitions to become the people we are right now. I don't think that the changes are bad though. I mean I thought about how I always saw myself in a creative field but instead I work in a very structured business environment. P had an entire life plan but now he questions every decision he makes. Friends change and you sometimes wonder why you became friends in the first place.

2) Weddings, engagements, and cheating. A weekend a few weekends ago has left me confused as to a certain state of affairs. An engagement went over like a lead balloon and I feel guilty about my reaction (even though I am very happy for this person, perhaps I'm feeling reticent or jealous). And see above for the last.

3) I'm moving in a month and can't wait to get in my new apartment.

4) I believe a certain individual who name starts with a D is trying to win back my affection. Umm, that's so over now I just find the whole thing insane.

5) I think I'm becoming overly picky in my dating. If you know me I know that you are thinking, her? she can't be picky! but I am and it worries me. Really I know what the problem is and I feel as though only a certain man will win my approval in the next few months.