What a wicked game to play. . .

This morning on my walk in the rain to work this morning I was thing about what has become one of the most popular things to do these days. Every woman I know is on some sort of diet these days or at least trying to achieve some better body. And if you can'thold your own in a discussion about what you did at the gym last night or how you're watching what you're eating I can't imagine how boring conversations must be. If you are the kind of person who has an amazing metabolism you certainly don't admit it.

Here's a sampling of some recent conversations

-I call S1 to go to lunch and she says that she has gained 6 pounds and doesn't want to eat out anymore because she's really starting to feel the effects

-Any conversation with S- there is some mention about how she has been slacking off about going to the gym and she has been eating horribly and none of her clothes seem to fit

-J- regularly will say she doesn't feel good, but that she hasn't eaten much today. Seeing as how lunch conversations with her will always involve a discussion about dieting I think the lack of eating has more to do with that then a lack of time.

All these women and good friends are beautiful and have great bodies, S1- is naturally thin and I've had people ask if she spends all her time at the gym. For the record no, but I know for a fact that she doesn't see herself like this at all. S- is strong and has a strong body, but is always trying to work something off. J- and I used to work with a girl who was constantly bouncing from diet to diet and had a model's figure. So I think she developed the same mindset. The women in my department are always talking about working out, we don't have snack days due to the fattening nature of the food, and it seems that it is only acceptable to eat salads at lunch.

Today I was riding the elevator with a coworker from another floor that commented that I had lost a lot of weight, which ended up being one of the highlights of my day. Somone else mentioned the same thing to me last week. People think that I am so confident (I only say this because someone said that they wished they could have the confidence I have). If only they knew. If they knew that I listen to everything that is said and want to look more like they do. That I have the least confidence of anyone I know but I can play it off that everything is cool. Tonight I went shopping with S2- and learning what size she wears I was amazed. We're much closer in size then I ever would have imagined.

I wonder if anyone else notices this. . .this wicked game that women are playing with one another.